ME

Well, I guess the first blog should let the world know who I AM.. Well my name is Steven.. i was born in a po-dunk city in southwest Ga, Albany to be specific. My parents divorced when i was six and my mother pretty much just hauled ass and left me and my dad. Growing up was extremely difficult, as i watched my father struggle every day just to keep the roof over our head, clothes on my back and food on the table.. I remember using a calculator at the grocery store to make sure we didn't go over the allowance for the week, getting woke up at the wee hours of Christmas morning opening a pack of baseball cards and a skateboard then not seeing him again for three solid days because he went to work all the overtime he could get just to pay the bills.. By no means am i saying we lived the poorest life but i don't know what the taste of a silver spoon is either..
         Growing up I did the best i could to make my family proud, even if that meant i neglected to live my life the way I wanted.. as long as I didn't let people down that meant i was doing good as a person.. As i aged, my experiences led me to be a shy, recluse, reserved person that was so afraid of rejection and not meeting peoples standards that i just chose to not venture out and explore not only myself but the world.
       Right out of high school, I wound up marrying my "high school sweetheart" and even though she is an absolute amazing and all around great woman, it was soon realized that we were not meant to be married and live together.. I was nowhere ready to be married and i had to walk through hellfire and brimstone to redeem myself. After that marriage i lived the life of a young 20 something, spending $200+ a weekend at the bar, engaging in any female that would give me the time of day/night, etc...
      During this time I met the mother of my BEAUTIFUL daughter. Now as i said, i was living up the 20 something lifestyle, so needless to say having a child was not in my game plan, but i manned up and accepted my actions and chose to put my child first and foremost. Well little did i know that 8 months into the pregnancy all hell would break loose and my life would take yet another dramatic turn. Three months after the birth of my daughter me and her mother married, 2 months after that we divorced, and 1 month after that i obtained custody of my daughter. (Now for all of you who don't already know the story and are scratching your head, i will explain in a soon to follow blog, so stay tuned) Well after the drama of that last fiasco i took 3 years and dedicated solely to my daughter, didn't date, didn't go out, didn't do anything but work, and come home to take care of my baby.
     After that sabbatical i decided that it was time for me to introduce me into the world once more, I started doing things again, tried to find and reconnect with friends. So this brings me to present day.. I have been employed with the Albany Fire Dept for going on 7 yrs (has included the past cple parts of this blog) my daughter in starting school and i find myself struggling to get by day by day to, like my father. provide for my family. In the past couple years i have met some awesome friends, yes I'm still mainly a isolationist, but i have learned to accept that having others in my life make days worth living. I hope this message hasn't put anybody to sleep , but has given a quick glimpse into the past 29 years of my life.. As stated I will indulge deeper into some of the high/low points in soon to follow blogs.. thank you for your time